Monday, May 23, 2011

Temperatures can predict the future?

***Fertility Issues Discussed***

Okay, well not REALLY predict the future as in your going to get a raise or win the lottery. I'm talking about my temperature charts of my morning, waking, temps. (BBT Chart) When I first started trying to get pregnant my sister told me to take my temp every morning and when it jumps it means I ovulated. Then after a couple months I could possibly see a pattern of my cycles. I didn't listen to her because my cycles were so out of wack anyway I didn't think it would help, and it may or may not had. I started seeing a fertility doctor last July and then really didn't tell me to start then either, so I didn't. A couple of months ago when they put me Clomid, which is suppose to help you ovulate, I started charting my temps. I just finished my 3rd cycle on clomid, with no success, but I could tell that I wasn't pregnant even before my period came because my temperatures were dropping. This was upsetting, but it made the shock of my period better.

So now where does this leave us? Well I'm not 100 % sure. After 10 months of seeing a fertility doctor, countless tests, a surgery, more tests, drugs, drugs that made me crazy at times, I'm still not pregnant and am going to the doctors for a follow up. I go on Wednesday, and am anxious! I've been told that the doctor will look over my cycles (I guess my temp charts) and then discuss what he thinks we should do next. I have a feeling its not going to be another round of Clomid, but hormone injections and then probably and IUI. From what I understand an IUI is where they take his swimmers and directly insert them into my uterus. The other fun part (1st fun part being getting more hormones) is we not get to start paying for procedures. It will suck a lil bit, but it will be worth it in the end. I believe that with having a follow up and learning what to do next that we will have a cycle off drugs for assistance, but I'm believing that it doesn't take our chances down any less to get pregnant this month, the stress will be off so who knows. I'm trying very hard to stay positive. I know that we will be parents one day, and great ones at that.

On a side note, Husband is back to work! He is working stupid hours that keep me up late at night and sleeping late. He goes in late afternoon and gets home early morning around 4. I have a hard time sleeping when he isn't home so I stay up late doing whatever and then go to bed. It works out because they I can sleep most the night with him, but sucks when I have to do things in the morning. Even though his hours suck, he gets paid well and is getting overtime. Which is a nice thing, especially knowing that we more than likely are going to have to pay to get a child. So that takes off one less stress, or makes it smaller at least.

Friday, May 13, 2011

The Blog that started it all...

I've been thinking about starting a blog, but didn't know if I could really do it. I've been searching online for quilt ideas and in return I get sent to peoples blogs. They inspire me to work on more projects, and to share them projects with others.

Then that got me thinking....What would I blog about? I enjoy baking and am wanting to cook more real home cooked meals. I thought that I could share my favorite recipes and things that turned out well. I also like to sew, and quilt, so like many others I can share my project. Then I am currently dealing with fertility issues. I hate saying that I have INfertility issues because it seems so never ending and negative. I know that I will eventually get a baby, and that my family will continue to grow. Then I figure I can eventually write about my family and kids. Writing for me is a calming experience, and I hope my experiences can inspire others.

So, after thinking about all the things I could blog about, I decided that I will and throw all the topics into one blog. That is how I've ended up here.

My goals for this blog is hopefully for it to be a up lifting experience. I want to share any food that I make that I think deserves to be taken noted. The food may be fun to make, delicious, look pretty, and hopefully all of that and more. I want to share my creativity with others, I want to share my projects, both craft and food. I'm hoping that with me sharing with others, will push me to do more projects. I feel that fertility issues, are some what hush hush, yes its a very personal topic. Even though its personal doesn't mean that it doesn't need to be talked about. I mean there are many people dealing with it and silently, I tend to be the not so quite one at times. I am not, and do not claim to be an expert by any mean! I just want to share my story. I feel at least of me that writing about it makes it easier for me to deal with. I am however, on my 3rd round of fertility drugs and am hoping that very soon I will no longer just be waiting for a baby.

So with all of that, a somewhat introduction into my world, I hope you continue in reading my story of my life as a modern day 50's housewife.